I'm Not O-Fucken-Kay

2007-03-17T22:16:00.000+11:00

Happy 15th birthday Mark!! I'm saying this because I don't think anyone actually remembered it except me!!

In other news, I finished LotS once again with my RX-8. Goddam I hate that car. Goddam.

Well, my life sucks. Anything happen to anyone lately?

2007-03-16T19:56:00.000+11:00

Bottom line. Camp was fun. I like blogging short. Goodbye.

2007-03-12T20:09:00.000+11:00

Camp tomorrow. Bummer. I mean... fuck. Yeh that's right. Fuck.

2007-03-09T23:52:00.000+11:00

Fucking Fall Out Boy.

Took fucking 3 hour until they fucking came out. I think Akhil died halfway. Miki and Jay were there =D

I hi-5ed Pete and touched him. Then I flicked his testicles. Happy Yutaro?

We're really fucking drenched now. So much fucking sweat and water.

2007-03-09T06:34:00.000+11:00

I Don't Love You

2007-03-09T02:58:00.000+11:00

Fall Out Boy in 16 hours... why am I posting at 3 in the morning... =="

2007-03-08T22:19:00.000+11:00

Fall Out Boy tomorrow.

I got Famous Last Words single and Sing the Sorrow by AFI today. Both good.

2007-03-07T18:17:00.000+11:00

Okay. I'm not going to wear my MCR shirt for a week. Can't be too hard.

2007-03-02T17:02:00.001+11:00

Pete Wentz is such a motherfucking poser.

2007-02-26T17:26:00.000+11:00

I'm going to Fall Out Boy!! .. at Luna Park...

2007-02-24T23:06:00.000+11:00

The albums I plan to get this year:
1. Good Morning Revival - Good Charlotte
2. Untitled Panic! At The Disco album - Panic! At The Disco
3. Untitled Avenged Sevenfold album - Avenged Sevenfold
4. Untitled Sum 41 album - Sum 41
5. Hand of Blood (EP) - Bullet For My Valentine
6. Killing with a Smile - Parkway Drive
7. City of Evil - Avenged Sevenfold

2007-02-16T16:58:00.000+11:00

Fucking YouTube deleted my account.

2007-02-15T22:16:00.000+11:00

I got Infinity on High for $17.99 at JB Hi-Fi =]

2007-02-14T19:17:00.001+11:00

Okay, who the fuck poisoned my chicken burger?

2007-02-11T18:01:00.000+11:00

That's right. I got it. Voliminal: Inside the Nine. And I'm gonna fucking watch it now.

2007-02-10T20:33:00.000+11:00

HAIRCUT!! BAD!!

I have less hair then my dad now =="

Got rid of shitty feeling with 2 straight hours of ID.. still feel like shit..

Getting Slipknot DVD tomorrow though =]

2007-02-09T21:02:00.000+11:00

BLUNT Issue #57

Interview with Bert McCracken:

"
Luke Logemann:
I guess last time we spoke was right after you stated publicly that your friendship with My Chemical Romance was over, which the dudes from MCR told us was just a publicity stunt. You've never struck me as someone who would create drama to get more publicity.

Bert:
Oh definitely not. That's the most stupid thing I've ever heard. I don't need the publicity and they definitely don't need the publicity. The truth of the matter is - and the only reason I would talk to you about it is 'cos you're a friend, but if any other interviewer asks about it I ask them to move on to the next question. But what happened was - it was maybe like a year and a half ago I saw all their heads blow up and after their heads blew up their heads kinda went up their arses as well. And I just thought, 'Fuck that, I don't need friends like that and I don't even need acquaintances like that'. As far the whole thing goes now, I wish them the best with their touring and their record, but it's over. It's definitely not a publicity stunt.
"

2007-02-04T18:14:00.000+11:00

Someone buy me Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness? =D

MCR

2007-01-28T00:29:00.000+11:00

How was MCR, you might say?

Well I say it was FUCKING GREAT!!!

Lined up for 6 fucking hours (lotsa lotsa painting, hugging, hi5ing and friend-making). The they finally let us in even the barcode on my ticket kinda ripped off. Anyway pissed and went straight into mosh pit. Then the opening act (Another Day Down from Brisbane) play a few of their songs in which the mosh was fucking crazy, drowning in a sea of people. The the curtain came down, "THE BLACK PARADE".

"Now come one, come all to this tragic affair. Wipe off that makeup, what's in it is despair. So throw on that black dress, mix in with the lot. You might wake up notice your someone your not."

Yep you guessed it, The End, followed by Dead! which fucking rocked (1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4!! lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala!).

Can you guess what was next?

"And without you is how is disappear!!"

Can it be anymore obvious?

Followed by the ever classic, "I'm Not Okay" and possibly the greatest polka-sounding cabaret-sounding song ever created, Mama (And if you call me your sweetheart, I'd maybe sing you a song).

Welcome to the Black Parade was such a blast with EVERYONE singing along. Gee should have just left the mic onstage waiting for someone to grab it and sing the entire song. And right behind is the best power ballad in the world, I Don't Love You (couldn't remember all the lyrics so I was too lazy to sing along with it ><).

Then came the most fucking best song ever Thank You for the Venom. I moshed so hard that Sunny and Danli had to pull me out during Teenagers so i wouldn't lose conscienceness.

Bought two Pepsis and listened from afar MCR's tribute to Frank, Give 'Em Hell, Kid. House of Wolves got all the hardcores rockin' ending with the beginning of You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison. Helena rocked the Hordern even more. And then they ended with Sleep (went back into the pit during it).

...

THEN THEY CAME BACK AND DID CANCER AND FAMOUS LAST WORDS!!!!!!!

Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

And I know
There's nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

------------------------------

Ahh bought MCR shirt and more drinks. Took Sunny and Danli home and now reminiscing MCR... *sigh* Still wearing sweat drenched shirt.

2007-01-27T00:02:00.001+11:00

HOLY FUCK!! 100%!!!!!

2007-01-23T23:36:00.000+11:00

DRUM MEDIA:

His
Romance
Continues

"Last week we heard the sad news that My Chemical Romance guitarist, Frank Iero wouldn't be coming over to Australia with the band for The Big Day Out tour as he'd fallen ill while on tour in Japan and had flown home to the US on 11 January.
Well, Sydney fans can be assured My Chemical Romance will be firing on all cylinders as apparently Frank has done what healing needed doing and will rejoin his bandmates this week for the Big Day Out and a string of sold out sideshows."

*shits self*

2007-01-23T18:33:00.001+11:00

I got a Wii =]

2007-01-21T08:54:00.000+11:00

I stole this:

"

Frank

[21.1.07 - 8.49am]

I just read on chemicalromance that Frank can fly in 5 days. So can't make Brisbane and Sydney but will be in Melbourne and thereafter.

And if you haven't already check out an interview with Gerard and Bob with the Morning Madhouse http://www.theedge.co.nz/SHOWS/MorningMadhouse/MMJunkDrawer/tabid/161/articleID/4427/Default.aspx#story they mention Frank and whatexactly is wrong.

2007-01-20T08:38:00.001+11:00

My Maltese likes to listen to MCR =]

2007-01-19T19:19:00.000+11:00

Okay, I got this directly from frank-iero.net even though its a little late:

"FRANK AND THE AUSSIES - 16 JAN 2007
Its rumored that Frank won't make it to the NZ tour leg. He will be there for the Aussies though. So, most likely, no Big Day Out showing for Frank.

Gerard confirmed on a Japanese radio station that Frank indeed had four wisdom teeth removed, which was the cause of his illness."

2007-01-19T00:02:00.000+11:00

Holy hell.

I just realised how close it is until the MCR concert.

I'm fucking shitting myself over here.

Hopefully Frank would have recovered by then.

2007-01-15T18:35:00.000+11:00

FRANK IERO WILL BE RETURNING AND PLAYING WITH THE BAND IN AUS!!!!

Now what can I do with 500 copies of the Aus MCRmy recruitment fliers? Anyone?

2007-01-12T17:46:00.000+11:00

I know most of you are non-Japanese speaker, here's the translation:

[IMPORTANT INFO ABOUT MCR JAPAN TOUR]

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE are to embark on Japan Tour 2007 from today(11/01 Wed. at Zepp TOkyo), but due to a sudden attack of illness, the guitarist Frank Iero had to return to his home; their support guitarist will come and play instead.

【MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE公演に関する重要なお知らせ】

本日【1月10日(水)】のZepp Tokyo公演よりJapan Tour 2007を開始するMY CHEMICAL ROMANCEですがギタリストのFrank Ieroが急病により帰国せざるを得なくなってしまったため、急遽サポート・ギタリストが来日することになりました。

Who else is fucking panicking?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????

FFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-01-09T22:54:00.000+11:00

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2006-12-27T18:58:00.000+11:00

Finally finished Initial D...

Tak and K.T were easier then I thought.... oh well... Bunta was pretty hard...

so many "..."...

2006-12-20T19:48:00.000+11:00

Chatswood today with Danli, Sunny, Leng and Rez (the lez).

I got at Mandarin Centre at 9am ==" and stayed there playing Initial D for a while (as usual).

Then walked off and met up with Danli, Sunny, Leng and Rez (the lez [wahahaha]).

Played more Timezone (bought Jap lemonade which for some reason blew up).

Leng went to Supre and spent 30 minutes trying on ONE FUCKING PIECE OF CLOTHING!!

Bought cookies after. Then had lunch someplace (can't remember no more).

Then me and Sunny left and waved to Danli and Leng for 10 minutes straight. Rez got rejected xP

At Maq there were these Russian Initial D guys and challenged a top player. Got his ass kicked.

All that = highlights of my day

Now Danli and Leng gone for a month =[

And yes i had coke today. coke for the first time in 16 weeks, 3 days, 18 hours and 23 minutes.

2006-12-19T22:38:00.000+11:00

Yawn... no post in so long...

Anyway...

Today went to Hornsby with sarah, sarah, sylvia, jess, tara and me. I blew $150 at timezone =].

I am now officially good at Initial D with my pro Skyline. wahahaha xDDDD

2006-12-10T12:25:00.000+11:00

i got a haircut =[

4/5 of my hair is gone =[

kill me =]

2006-12-04T18:14:00.000+11:00

No post in long time...

Nothing exciting has happened...

Oooo~ on sat at maq i randomly met rezza and her 'family' xD they so random. i just scabbed money of them to play initial d.

And for no reason i got The Used - The Used cd...

hmmmm thats pretty much it...

Oh yes and only54 more days til MCR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-30T16:16:00.000+11:00

lotsa people wagged today xD

bought abf 2 xD

saw catch a fire xD

everyone kept calling everyone 'blacks' xD

xD

2006-11-29T17:48:00.000+11:00

tomorrow strike day =]

cant think of anything to blog...

ah o.c good last night... xD

peaches... xp

2006-11-24T16:30:00.000+11:00

FUCK OFF JUJU!!

Vampires Will Never Hurt You

And if they get me and the sun goes down into the ground
And if they get me take this spike to my heart and
And if they get me and the sun goes down
And if they get me take this spike and
You put the spike in my heart

And if the sun comes up will it tear the skin right off our bones
And then as razor sharp white teeth rip out our necks I saw you there
Someone call the doctor, someone get me to a church
Where they can pump this venom gaping hole
And you must keep your soul like a secret in your throat
And if they come and get me
You put the spike in my heart

And if they get me and the sun goes down
And if they get me take this spike and
-Chorus-
Can you take this spike?
Will it fill our hearts with thoughts of endless
Night time sky
Can you take this spike?
Will it wash away this jet black feeling?

And now the nightclub set the stage for this they come in pairs she said
We'll shoot back holy water like cheap whiskey they're always there
Someone get me to the doctor, and someone call the nurse
And someone buy me roses, and someone burned the church
We're hanging out with corpses, we're driving in this hearse
Someone save my soul tonight, please save my soul
-Chorus-

And as these days watch over time, and as these days watch over time
And as these days watch over us tonight
I'll never let them, I'll never let them
I'll never let them hurt you now tonight
I'll never let them, I can't forget them
I'll never let them hurt you, I promise

Struck down, before our prime
Before, you got off the floor
Can you stake my heart? Can you stake my heart?
Can you stake me before the sun goes down?

2006-11-22T16:18:00.000+11:00

today went to hornsby with danli.
gona see saw 3 but not allowed so little miss sunshine...again =="
spent over $80 at timezone.
still got $100 left.
hmm thats about it.

2006-11-20T16:35:00.000+11:00

today in math rohan smashed up one of those mint thingys and i sniffed it up using a $50 note =]

AND FUCK YOU CHARITH!!

2006-11-18T20:08:00.000+11:00

today = lin+vickis party
movie = little miss sunshine [full random movie with the word "fuck" several times]

woke up at 3... went to flemington at 4... got to maq at 6...
did some work at store and then went to bustop to wait for sunni.
no abf volume 1,2,3,5, or 6 xDDD
then mark came.
then went to intencity.
then more people came.
then went iceskating.
more people came.
iceskating done.
lunch and cake [delicious fruit cake xDD i want more!!]
more intencity.
went to cinema.
sit outside and do random stuff.
movie. [plenty of random biting]
even more intencity.
most people went home.
me go downstairs.
go eastwood steambowl restaurant.
go home.
do this blog.

thats pretty much all that happened today

2006-11-17T20:21:00.000+11:00

this is me to sunni

would you...

Kiss me: quote: "lol"
Hug me: sure
Date me: quote: "lol"
Get tipsy with me: i think already have
Kill me: i would probably accidently kill everyone anyway
Love me:er.. friendly love
Hate me: possibly..*suss look*
Hold me: um.. i guess?
Lie to me: yep
Hurt me: i feel like biting you right no
Sing with me: bow befoh us puny mortals!!
Dance with me: um.. i guess
Grind with me: whats that
Cuddle with me: yep
Let me make a move on you: um.. um..
Make a move on me: UM... as a joke?
Watch a movie with me: done
Get me a B-day gift: done
Care 4 me: yesh
Tickle me: too lazy
Let me tickle you: i would tear your arm off
Let me borrow your car: as long as you dont crash it...i still need a car though
Be there for me: yup
Buy me a drink: sure
Bring me around your friends: mhm
Give me a massage: i dunno
Take me to the club: mhm
Go to sleep with me: sleep. not sex. sleep
Do me: who made this quiz anyway?
Drink coke with me: drink or sniff?
Take advantage of me: mhm
Let me take advantage of u: ummmm
Hangout with me: yup
Take care of me if I wasn't feeling good: mhm
Hold hands with me: mhm
Do something incredibly sweet for me: mhm
Give me a lap dance: i demand a refund
Let me give u 1: i demand another refund
Tell me you love me: as a friend
Let me call you: mhm
If so whats your number: you already got
What would you do if you woke up next to me: say: "i musta smoked some powerful shit last night O.o"

Sunni's Quiz

2006-11-14T18:23:00.000+11:00

{DETAILS}
Full Name: Geoffrey Guan-Jie Wang
Age: 14
Bday: 26th June 1992
Listeningto: So Long Sweet Summer - Dashboard Confessional
Eating: Fire
drinking: Fire
current mood: twitchy

{FAVS}
food: ramen, oporto chicken
drink: orange juice and vodka cruiser =]
colour: black + red + white [and somtimes green]
band: MCR!
font: courier new
movie: Kill Bill VOlume 1.
manga: DeathNote/InitialD

{LAST}
phone call: DanlixLin
what about ;D: lin being usual bitch and danli bitching at lin for being bitch
sms: danli saying she forgot her keys
time you showered: 20 hours ago
thing u bought: ANOTHER initial d card
hug: mark?
kiss: self
bite: danli
movie: grudge 2
time u got pissed: 4 minutes ago
time u shouted: yelling out: "CHARITHS A NIGGA/BLACK!!" on the bus
person u msned with: sunni
thing u touched: left arrow key

{DO YOU?}
smoke: NEVER!!
take drugs: possibly...no
believe in sex after marriage: other then hardcore religious people... who does?
sleepwalk: several times this year..
suffer from any disorders: i am classified as insane
phobias: reflections
hav any tattoos: i wish..
pierced: i wish..

{HOW OFTEN?}
do you shit: once a day or once every 2 days
do you piss: many many times
do you charlie: i am not a gurl yet
do you shave legs: havent so far

{CONFESSION}
strange addictions: old skool cars
a special somebody: emily xD
most fucky: whatever you think
want most: a piercing or my own initial d machine/car
one word to describe you: fucking-idiot [i used a hyphen =]]
the person who you wana fuck most: think hard and then stop and go to sleep
porn site: long time [hard to believe]
Illiterate: sometimes when spun too much
pregnant: too much red bull
seriously stalked anyone: nup
got stalked: i shot a dude?
talent: i can spell pencelcase
group sex: sometime in the near future
been in a 3some: meXsunniXdanli during grudge 2 [xD]
person u feel sorry for: danli for being in the same class as lin *salutes danli*

{WOULD YOU RATHER?]
long relationship/lotsa quick ones: don't mind
freeze/burn to death: freeze
realy short or realy tall: being tall is cool
nerd/bitch: both
fuk a gorilla/ hump a dog: why is there no option for death?
die/live forever: die
shit hardcore[constipation]/ runny: runny
fuk mikey or franky? BOTH!! SAME TIME!!

yeh i finished it =] i feel proud

2006-11-13T17:58:00.000+11:00

[NOW ]
Current mood: burning [literally]
Current music: the desert song - mcr [#from the earth to the morgue!! the morgue!! the morgue!!#]
Current taste: shirt
Current hair: black
Current clothes: shirt, pants etc. you get the point
Current annoyance: my dog just bit me...
Current smell: sweat
Current thing I should be doing: everything that ive gotten at school this year
Current windows open: msn...wmp...several convos...this thingy...
Current desktop picture: super seksy mcr wallpaper by the super seksy s0nny [what danli said]
Current favorite band: isnt it fucking obvious?

[ DO YOU.. ]
Smoke?: nup
Do drugs?: nup
Remember your first love?: nup
Still love him/her?: nup
Read the newspaper?: nup
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: a certain person...people
Believe in miracles?: nup
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: nup
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: what chu call me
Consider love a mistake?: nup
Like the taste of alcohol?: yes i do
Have a favorite candy?: candy is poison. so is alcohol but you dont see me complaining
Believe in magic?: my magic spellbook caused the end of the previous few dimensions
Believe in god?: atheist
Have any pets: two dogs, several fish, and Tofu the iDog =]
Go to or plan to go to university: *shrug*
Have any piercings?: i wish
Have any tattoos?: i wish
Hate yourself: nup
Have an obsession?: yup
Have a secret crush?: cough
Have a best friend?: several that are currently huntting me for the massive bounty on my head
Wish on stars?: why didnt anyone tell me you could?!

[ LOVE LIFE ]
Ever been in love?: answer that yourself
Do you believe in love at first sight?: no
Do you believe in "the one?": my name is neo [does matrix flying thing white fighting smith]
Describe your ideal significant other: answer the question "Describe your ideal significant other"
Have you ever been intoxicated?: i cant get drunk...you know coke syndrome and shit
Have you ever been caught "doing something?": i have a shotgun. stay the fuck outta my room
Are you a tease?: can you ask that again please? *gets out knife*
Shy to make the first move?: depends on what you mean by "the first move"

[ APPEARANCE ]
Hair: black like danlis and sunni hearts
Eyes: the colour of black kryptonite
Height: 180cm...yeh im a freak
Weight: 60kg...give or take 5kg
Body Type: my back is deformed...too much initial d and ghost squad

[ LAST THING.. ]
Bought: 3 lighters and a packet of fruit tingle
Ate & Drank: i ate all off marcus noodles and i drank all of bobos ice tea
Read: "Read"
Watched on TV: gerard and franky kissing

[ EITHER OR.. ]
beer or cider: any
cats or dogs: any
single or taken: any
pen or pencil: pen[cil] ..?
gloves or mittens: I WILL KILL YOU ALL!!
food or candy: any
cassette or cd: combination of ipod, mobile, pc, and my mums screaming [at me of course]
coke or pepsi: neither for long time

[ WHO DO YOU WANT TO... ]
kill: popa, lemmer, all the yr 10s...oh the list just goes on and on and on and on and on and on...
get really wasted with: sunni and danli...they look funni when high
look like: myself
avoid: my conscienceness

[ LAST PERSON YOU.. ]
saw: moi
talked to on the phone: myself...i picked it up and started talking...
hugged: i dunno...lin or something
instant messaged: again myself...its possible

[ HAVE YOU EVER.. ]
Drank alcohol?: duh
Done drugs?: nup
Broken the law?: several
Broken a bone?: many times [i have to broken fingers right now]
Played Truth Or Dare?: yerh
Kissed someone you didn't know?: no..
Been in a fight?: hell yeah
Come close to dying?: haha you wont believe how many times

[ WHAT IS.. ]
Your bedroom like?: its like hell only hell smells better
Your favorite thing for breakfast?: your blood
Your favorite restaurant?: the blood bank
What's on your bedside table?: gun, ipod, mobile, idog etc
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? cheese
What is your biggest fear?: that im going to be killed by everyone
Describe your bed: hard and cold [the way i like it]
Do you know how to play poker?: i won the international 21yr old age group comp for cancer [cough]
What do you carry with you at all times? stuff
What do you miss most about being little? everyone was afraid of me coz i was tall...everybody still is though
Are you happy with your given name? where the fuck did my parents come up with my name anyway
What color is your bedroom? what ever colour you see
Have you ever been in a play? i died of lung cancer halfway in romeo and juliet =]
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? nop
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? two way

[ Who was your last? ]
1. Person(s) you hung out with? sunni/danli/lin/sal/guys from normo/girls from hornsby
2. Rode in a car with? myself
3. Went to the movies with? refer q. 1
4. Went to the mall with? refer q. 1
5. Last thing that made you laugh? when i kicked charith
6. Last person you told and/or they told you they Love you? now i feel lonely
7 . Last person you texted? ummm...i dunno
8. Commented? beats me
9. Messaged? or IM? refer to q. 7

2006-11-10T17:16:00.000+11:00

3 Things that scare me:
- bloody mary
- intense thinking
- smart people

3 People who can make me laugh:
- death?
- charith [in pain]
- minjoo [afraid of me]

3 Things I love:
- MUSIC!! PRETTIFUL MUSIC!!
- friends
- money!! lotsa money!!

3 Things I hate:
- egomaniacs
- boybands [shudder]
- overuse of the word "nigga"

3 Things I don't understand:
- people
- my brain
- science data processing test

3 Things on my desk:
- mobile
- gun
- ipod

3 Things I'm doing right now:
- doing this quiz
- listening to MCR - Mama
- nothing

3 Things I want to do before I die:
- vote for Al Gore
- buy franky ieros skeleton
- own a nation

3 Things I can do:
- breathe
- dial a number
- do...other stuff

3 Ways to describe my personality:
- insane
- weird
- inweird?

3 Things that people might not know about you:
- i can drive a car better then other 14 yr olds... as in a real car
- it is my dream to become a vampire [probably pretty dam obvious]
- sue al gore when he becomes predisent

3 Things I can't do:
- factorise
- stay sober
- walk normal

3 Things I think you should listen to:
- teenagers - MCR
- the voice coming from the closet
- the alcohol percentage thingy

3 Things I don't think you should listen to ever:
- what the voice actually tells you to do
- your conscience
- me

3 Of my absolute favorite foods:
- RAMEN!!
- blood
- that stuff i found at the bottom of my bag

3 things i'd like to learn:
- how to think sanely
- how to restrain myself from sleepwalking
- to play guitar with coordination

3 Beverages I drink regularly:
- vodka cruiser
- easyway
- [formerly] coke

3 Shows I watched when I was a child:
- seseame street [cant spell =="]
- playschool
- arthur

3 People i Tag to do this:
- me
- me
- YOU!!

2006-11-05T19:03:00.000+11:00

Bad student?

[x] Gotten a referral.
[x] Gotten detention.
[x] Gotten ISS.
[x] gotten suspended.
[x] Chewed gum during class.
[x] Gotten late to a class more than 10 times.
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[x] Returned at least 5 projects in late.
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[x] Skipped class at least 3 times.
[x]Got your mom/dad to get you out of school.
[x] Texted people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher.
[ ] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[x] Went on myspace ; xanga ; etc on the computer in the library.
[x] Took pictures during class.
[x] Called someone during class.
[x] Listened to an ipod/cd player/mp3 during class.
[x] Threw something at the teacher.
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class.
[x] Ate food during class.

add up your score and times it by 4.
i am a 96% bad student in school

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Are you shy?

[ ] You are afraid of public speaking
[ ] You find it hard to talk to strangers.
[ ] You don't like to look people in the eye.
[ ] You have trouble using public restrooms.
[ ] You don't like to go shopping alone.
Total: 0
[ ] Being introduced to new people makes you nervous.
[ ] When you're in a group of people, it's difficult to think of what to say.
[ ] You have a lot of trouble talking to the opposite sex.
[ ] You hate to be teased.
[ ] You dread answering the door.
Total: 0
[ ] You can't stand people watching you.
[ ] One on one conversations make you nervous.
[ ] You don't like to ask people for help.
[ ] You hate to read aloud.
[ ] You don't like asking questions.
Total: 0
[ ] You dread ordering food at restaurants.
[ ] You are uncomfortable at parties, unless you know everyone well.
[ ] You don't like to talk, because you're afraid of being embarrassed by what you say.
[ ] You've been single for long periods of time, because you're so uncomfortable with dating.
[ ] You wish you were more outgoing.
Total: 0

Add all the x's and multiply by 5.
"I'm 0% Shy"
...wtf this is fucked up

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*YOU*
* What time is it now?: [checks clock]
* What is your full name?: geo
* Single or taken?: how ever you like it seksy
* What do you always get complimented on?: my driving power and my incredible "not-deaf-yet" power
* What are the last four digits of your phone? 9688 [try find me fucker]
* You think you're cute?: hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...no
* Hair colour?: black like danlis heart

*FAVOURITES*
* Favourite Drink?: what the fuck do you think?!
* Favorite alcoholic drink?: various vodka cruiser flavours mixed with blended ice [i made it =]]
* Favourite Food(s)?: does ice count?
* Favourite Computer Game?: initial d
* Favourite clothing brand(s)?: what clothing?
* Favourite type of clothing?: shirt, pants, shoes, underwear...
* Favourite day of the Year?: 31st october... franky's bday =]
* Favourite colour(s)?: red, white, black
* Favourite animal?: blue eyes white dragon

*FAMILY AND FRIENDS*
* Do u have more boy or girl friends?: 1/2 boys, 1/2 girls
* Are your parents together? hope not
* How often do you get together with the family?: i dwell in their unholy pit of shit you facist pig!
* Do you tell your parents or your friends more?: myself
* Anything special about your parents?: they let me drive...well my dad at least

*YES OR NO or maybe or whatever you want*
* You're a flirt?: no but my penis is
* You're mean?: i am mean
* You can keep secrets?: depends
* You've seriously hurt someone?: myself
* You willing to try new things?: my own car

*RIGHT NOW*
* What are you wearing?: shorts
*What are you listening to?: Dead! - MCR
* What are you feeling?: my ipod
* What are you eating?: a whole watermelon
* How's the weather?: raining shit heavy~ *sniff*

*GIRLS ONLY* [i might as well do it]
* How many lip glosses do you have?: none atm
* what perfume do you wear?: perfume is for pussies
* What's in your purse?: money...lotsa money
* tall or short boys?: i am tall
* Blonde or brunette?: im not gay yet
* short hair on boys?: its all the same
* Piercings on boys?: why wont my parents let me...
* Good or bad guys?: not gay yet
* What do you find annoying in a guy?: WE'RE SO FUCKING HORNY!! EVERY FUCKING SECOND!!
* What's the first thing you notice about boys?: penis size

*BOYS ONLY*
* What kind of after shave do you use?: i dont shave yet
* Boxers or briefs?: free and breezy i say
* Blonde or brunette girls?: why not both?
* Piercings on girls?: its fun to try new things
* Long or short hair on girls?: tall [otherwise i cant reach]
* Good or bad girls?: umm...both?
* What do you find annoying in girls?: always fucking complaining!!
* What's the first thing you notice about girls?: ...are you a lesbian?

*OTHER QUESTIONS*
* What was the last movie you saw?: does Life On The Murder Scene count?
* What did you have for dinner?: vodka and chocolate
* What are you hoping for?: my own pony
* What did you last dream about?: my fiery death at the hands of president bush
* What was the last thing you ate?: some dude from intencity
* If you were a crayon what colour what would you be?: red =]
* Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?: lin and danli [lin is a little kid/bitch]
* Do you like the person who you got it from? : im not 16 yet
* Are you too shy to ask someone out?: you motherfuckering quiz
* Scary movies or happy ending?: lotsa lotsa blood and im happy
* Summer or winter?: the one where people die in most
* Relationships or one night stands?: both?
* Chocolate or Vanilla?: chocolate
* Anything else you want to add?: i wanna meet mcr in person and touch them and never ever wash that finger/hand/thing ever again

that took a long time

2006-11-05T18:11:00.000+11:00

This weekend I played a combined total of 8 hours of Initial D...

I feel proud =]

Go my Sil-Eighty!!

There goes over $100...

Anyway who wants a cookie?

2006-10-30T17:00:00.000+11:00

MCR TICKETS!!

*HYPERVENTILATE*

SO FUCKEN HAPPY!!

Another fucken cookie!!

And for the sake of it:

I Never Told You What I Do For A Living

Stay out of the light.
All the photographs that I gave you
you could say a prayer for me too.
But just get in line and i'll believe you.
Can i meet you, alone?
Another night and ill see you.
Another night and ill be you.
Some other way to continue.

To hide my face.

Another knife in my hands,
a stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me off
I'm so dirty babe,
the kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes.
I keep a book of the names and those
only goes so far to bury them
So deep in town we go.

Touched by angels so I fall out of place
I've been in also maybe I move this everyday

Another knife in my hands,
a stain that never comes off the sheets
Clean me off
I'm so dirty babe
It ain't the money and it sure as hell ain't just for the fame.
It's for the bodies I claim and lose
Only goes so far to bury them
So deep in town we go.

Down

And down we go
And down we go
And down we go
And we all fall down

[yelling]

And we'll all dance alone to the tune of your death.
We'll love again, we'll laugh again
and it's better off this way.

And never again, and never again
They gave us two shots to the back of the head
and we're all dead now.

Well never again, and never again
They gave us two shots to the back of the head
and we're all dead now.

I tried, one more night, one more night
well I'm laughin', cryin', laughin'
I tried,
Well i tried,
Well i tried,

'Cause i tried
but i lied

I tried
I tried
I tried

And we'll love again and we'll laugh again
We'll try again and we'll dance again
and it's better off this way.
So much better off this way.
I can't clean the blood off the sheets in my bed

Never again, and never again
They gave us two shots to the back of the head
and we're all dead now

2006-10-29T16:06:00.000+11:00

YAYY!!
MCR TICKETS!!
One for me, one for Danli and one for Sunni

I have a fucking cookie and I'm gonna fucking eat it now!!

And for the hell of it I'll type the thingy I found on Life On The Murder Scene cover:

You hold in your hands the story of five kids who have had their dreams come true. We would like to dedicate this release to our families & loved ones who've believed in us from the beginning. To all of our friends who work tirelessly to keep MCR dangerous. And to the fans...this is for you. Thank you from the bottom of our black little hearts for staying so pure. So passionate and so strong. Your belief in us is immeasurable and for that we love you eternally.
xoxo
-MCR

2006-10-24T19:39:00.000+10:00

2 hours and I've already got most of the Black Parade's new songs =]

1. ~~The End~~
2. ~~Dead!~~
3. ~~This Is How I Disappear~~
4. ~~The Sharpest lives~~
5. ~~Welcome To The Black Parade~~
6. ~~I Don't Love You~~
7. ~~House Of Wolves~~
8. ~~Cancer~~
9. ~~Mama~~
10. ~~Sleep~~
11. ~~Teenagers~~
12. ~~Disenchanted~~
13. ~~Famous Last Words~~
14. ~~Blood [Hidden Track]~~

Blood
Well they encourage a complete cooperation
Send you roses when they think you need to smile
I can’t control my self because I don’t know how
When they love me for it honestly, I’ll be here for a while
So give the blood, blood, gallons of the stuff
Give them all that they can drink and it will never be enough
So give them blood, blood, blood.
Grab a glass because there’s going to be a flood
A celebrated man amongst the gurney’s
They can fix the problem with a bit of luck
The doctors and the nurses, they adore me so
But it’s really quite alarming
‘Cause im such an awful fuck
I gave you blood, blood
Gallons of the stuff I gave you
All that you can drink
And it’s never been enough
I gave you blood, blood, blood
I’m the kind of human wreck that you love.

2006-10-20T20:51:00.000+10:00

*hyperventilate*

Gonna see MCR LIVE NEXT YEAR!!

YAYY!!

Must get tickets as fast as possible

2006-10-19T19:34:00.000+10:00

Romeo and Juliet play =]

Charith - Juliet
Jamie - Romeo
Isaac - Don Capulet
Rohan - Tybalt
Me - 2nd Capulet, Barman & Nurse (a.k.a Bodyguard)

Lunch...
Everyone went to room 24 to watch...
Took all of lunch just to set up everything... music, props, camera positions, clothing etc
We had to go into 7th period and filmed it without any distractions from everyone else =]
Namans unconess meant we had to do the ending scene about 5 times...

2006-10-16T16:32:00.000+10:00

Yar...
First day of school...

1st & 2nd period: V.A!! SUB!! WOO!!
Naman and Vasan got high of newspaper and I tackled Wei Su...

3rd & 4th period: English...
BOREDOM!! Read Going Solo... then we watched Juju's play =] Shake 'n' bake Jordon. xP

5th period: Jap... with Hayes
Again boredom but we got to watch "Sum Do, Sumo Don't"... random sumos... Smiley is a pussy...

6th period: Music
Music theory is POINTLESS!! interesting music though

7th period: Math
Forgot my book so just talked to Rohan the whole period... in the process of money I stood up on my chair and screamed out, "SHOW ME THE MONEY!!"

8th period and final period: R.E instead of Science with Spencer
Lol we waited infront of room 24 but then Spencer came and told us to go to room 4 and we just screamed through the corridor... watched the simpsons =]

thats pretty much it...

2006-10-15T11:46:00.001+10:00

I finally changed the goddam skin =]
F
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K
I
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NO COKE!!!!
5 WEEKS!!!
ARRRR!!!

2006-10-14T21:46:00.000+10:00

Today I broke a Daytona machine =]

2006-10-12T07:20:00.000+10:00

-yawn- I need sleep... woke up at 2am and still have nothing to do...

I'm feeling generous right now, so free dowload of:

Welcome to the Black Parade - My Chemical Romance

Just click on the link
Remember stealing songs is a bad thing but it's not like anyone cares anymore... other then the government...

2006-09-28T21:43:00.000+10:00

WAHH!!! I'M GOING TO GO INSANE!!

COKELESS FOR:
481 hours and 43 minutes

Still fucken bored... tomorrow last day of school so please all Normos who read this, don't go... for the sake of me, Mark and the black peoples entertainment...

Explosions in mah headfones:
I Want You Bad - The Offspring
la di da di da... pretty catchy song

2006-09-22T21:13:00.000+10:00

No coke for almost 2 weeks... I keep replacing other words with "coke"!!
Example:
Hey Coke [Charith], gimme some of your Coke [chicken tender roll.. yum ;)]

My brain is going to explode soon...

Moving on... Em has gone to viet and i have nothing to do for the hols coming up next week... probably go out with everyone else and get wasted at Macquarie

Aipodo desu: Drain The Blood - The Distillers
lol love Brody Dalle's voice

2006-09-15T21:03:00.000+10:00

Ahh shit Em's PARENTS found out bout me and they actually know my name now... pretty fucked up.

Coke famine going well. Been 145 hours and 3 minutes since my last coke. So very thirsty...

Gonna go see Stormbreaker next Thurs. Hope it's good.

Sex to mah ears;
I'm Not Okay (I Promise) - My Chemical Romance
fucken addicted to that song now after I saw the vid

A Long Rant on HIV

2006-09-07T16:35:00.000+10:00

On HIV:

This week is immunology week in our course. (Immunology is the study of how the body’s innate defences against infection and injury can go wrong.) This includes HIV, which is an infection of immune cells rendering them impotent and allowing other infections, which normally have no foothold in the body, to take over; it is usually eventually fatal. One of the figures which particularly struck me was the worldwide prevalence of HIV: 1 in every 150 people worldwide have HIV. This is amazing. That’s a lot of people who have it.

How often do people think about HIV, and how they might reduce its incidence, or the suffering of the people who have it? For a disease which is so insidiously prevalent worldwide, why is it that there is almost no focus on it in the media? A few people die of SARS, over a few months, and it’s an epidemic. Many more people die from AIDS-related disease every year and there’s little to no mention of it. Perhaps one of the reasons is because a majority of infected people live in Africa, and who cares about such an overpopulated, underdeveloped, poor, politically unimportant, war-torn, dirty, primitive area anyway? An estimated 35% of people in southern Africa are infected with HIV. I bet if the numbers were that high in America or Australia we’d be hearing about it at least once a week on the news.

Another reason would probably be related to the primary methods of transmission of the HIV. Everyone knows homosexual men and intravenous drug users are the most at risk, right? (In fact, in Australia, where there are needle exchange programs and safe injecting rooms, the highest risk is in homosexual men, whereas in the US where such programs don’t exist, the intravenous drug users make up a far higher proportion of those who contract HIV, and numbers of people infected with HIV are some four times higher.) This must be a punishment from higher powers, right? Maybe God’s punishing the gays! And the druggies! Serves them right!

This viewpoint *really really* pisses me off. Firstly if you have this view of HIV then you should logically apply that view to diseases like polio, which paralyses kids. Yeah, those kids! They need some discipline! That’s what polio’s for! Or smallpox, which almost wiped out the American Indians. Well, that’s natural selection, right? The best survives? …Secondly, no one has the authority to speak for God. Who knows why God does things? We can guess and we might even get it right sometimes, but if you’re not God, don’t speak for him. People like that give God a bad name.

Of course, this doesn’t just apply to HIV; HIV was just the medium by which I started thinking about all this. What about vaccine-preventable diseases? (That was in another lecture I had this week.) The poor regions, Africa and South-East Asia, have the highest rates of vaccine-preventable infant deaths. Things like diptheria, tetanus- diseases we in Australia get vaccinated for almost automatically from birth. Cheap vaccines which can potentially prevent life-long illness, deformity and death are not given. Why? And why does no one in normal life seem to care? I’m not even saying I’m special in this respect; I know myself, and I know that in a week or two after I’ve written this, I’ll go back to not caring about any of it. Why?

This leads me onto a related topic. I often wonder whether, in training to be a doctor, I’m doing the best with my life I can. As a Christian, I believe the most important thing is to bring people to know God. An extremely basic summation of Christianity (which leaves out quite a lot of necessary detail; don’t anyone assume this is all there is to it, because that’s not what I mean to portray) is, believe in God or go to hell. Literally. So any Christian who cares in any way at all about anyone else is practically compelled to warn them about the consequences of not believing.

Where is the space in this for doctoring? For healing people’s bodies, when they’ll be going to hell anyway? What is the point, in the long run? Who cares about those infected with HIV? They can still become Christians! And then they’ll die, but it won’t matter because they won’t be in hell! A subtle variation on this argument: what’s so bad about slavery? They had slaves back in Jesus’ day, and some of them even became Christians. Paul even told them to obey their masters. So why did a few Christians in the 1800s take such offence at the whole practice of slavery and start up an anti-slavery movement?

I’m glad that someone reminded me of the two greatest commandments at this point. They are: “love God” and “love your neighbour”. If you love someone, you want what’s best for them. This includes telling them about hell, because I think most people would agree that hell is probably a long way from being the best for anyone. But it also, I think, includes quality of life. If you love someone, you will want a higher quality of life for them. And that’s the reason why slavery was abolished (in quite a lot of places, but not all; slavery still exists and anyone who denies that has their head in the sand), and that’s the reason why we should remember and try to care for HIV infected people.

And that’s why I will continue to train in doctoring. Because even though I may not be primarily involved in telling people about God and hell and what the difference is, I will still be trying to improve the quality of some people’s lives, by prolongation or by relief of pain and disease, and that’s all part of loving my neighbour.

By Esta the med student
got any problems or corrections? send an email here

On The Pointlessness of Life:

2006-09-07T16:24:00.000+10:00

There are people who say that life is pointless, that there is no higher meaning to what we do, that each and every day we wake up to trundle through a routine that we will repeat again and again to no avail, and that the end of it all we will die and leave nothing behind or forward. I often wonder why these people are still alive. If they really believed in this philosophy, if they truly utterly believed the truth of this to the very core of their soul, then why bother? Why continue to live out a meaningless existence which will contribute nothing lasting and mean nothing and is of no significance whatsoever? What’s the point? Of course there are a few suicides who probably believe this. Hooray for them, who are willing to die for their beliefs. (Note though, that the vast majority of suicides are mentally ill with depression, or are attention-seeking. There are probably even some which are accidental. I do not consider those with depression to be true believers in the particular philosophy we are discussing- cerebral chemical imbalances and life circumstances influence their thought too much for any conclusions to be reached by a completely rational path.) But most people who say that there is no point to life are still walking around, living. Why? “Oh, well, we might as well have some fun.” Why, what for? What point is pleasure if there is no point? “Propagate the species.” You could leave that to those poor idiots who think there *is* some sort of meaning to life- after all, there’s plenty of them around. Other excuses are even worse and I’m not going to bother with them. Basically, those proponents of a pointlessness to life don’t believe in what they say. If they did, they wouldn’t be around to say it. Hypocrites. By Esta the med student any problems or corrections? send her an email here

2006-09-02T11:18:00.000+10:00

Click here
to see My Own Destruction perform No Reason by Sum 41... lol... Yutaro singing...cruel...

2006-08-30T16:34:00.000+10:00

haha just got back from Hornsby =]
Spent $50 at Timezone but should've seen a movie... Hoodwinked lol

2006-08-30T10:10:00.000+10:00

FUCKEN HELL PEOPLE!! QUITE ASKING HOW MY SUSPENSION IS GOING!! IT'S FUCKEN BORING!!
On the brighter side I'm going to Hornsby in 4 hours.
Last night weird dream... I was attacked by the Colombian and Italian mafia...I think there was also a Mexican one....

Sex to my ears = Queens of the Stoneage - Damned for All Time

2006-08-29T10:41:00.000+10:00

Wheee!!!
No punishment from parents!!

Music in mah ears; Epic - Faith No More

2006-08-28T17:07:00.000+10:00

Suspended for biting Bradley Collins in the neck...
WHAT KIND OF SICK BULLSHIT IS THAT?!
At least I get two days off school but parents gotta talk to Warren...
The whole system is fucked

2006-08-21T06:59:00.000+10:00

Haven't blogged in longtime... So goddam bored... No one is goddam online... WHY WON'T YOU PEOPLE FUCKEN WAKE UP?! *glare*

Want to be Emo?

2006-08-03T17:29:00.000+10:00

It's easy! just follow these step by step and you'll be labeleled as an Emo by everyone.

• Buy a skateboard and ride it a lot. Also, try and use your calves as little as possible. This will help them become spindly and aid in the fitting of super tight jeans and/or cords.

• Speaking of which, buy a pair. You need to be able to just fit in them. Yes, suck it in, that's right.

• Go and buy yourself an Aston guitar starter pack and learn three or four power chords. Remember, you're not trying to get good, just to be able to play something to whine to.

• Grow your hair so that it makes a straight, long fringe over your face, covering one eye and some of your nose. If you don't have straight hair, get youself a cheap straightened from Target. Buy sine black hair dye and hair gel as well (unless you're of Asian decent, in which case your hair is probably already black)

• Buy lots of t-shirts, all tight, darker shades with stupid designs on them, like concentric circles or tears or some guy looking up into the sky somewhere.

• Mascara. No such thing as too much. Lather it on. (Cool variation; use non water proof mascara and poke yourself in the eyes until you cry-this creates a nice tear effect.)

• Scars! Cut, cut, cut! No one looks Emo without some battle wounds. Cut wrists, slash arms, all good. Cover them up with black, spiked arm bands and look even more Emo! Also good is emotional heartbreak, get a girl, fall in love, do something stupid so that she breaks up with you and then keep convincing yourself that she was the greatest thing that ever happened to you so that you cry a lot. (Time to get the ol'Ashton out and write a song.)

• Tat's are good, down your arm, lot's of purdy colours, like the guy from Good Charlotte.

• Most importantly, accesorise! Buy and iPod, fill it with Emo music (Funeral For A Friend, My Chemical Romance, Something Corporate, etc.) stick in the headfones and never take them out! Ever! Play it so loud that everyone can hear the drums and always ignore what people say until the third time when you yell at them!

• Also, studded belt, spike wristbands and Converse-All-Stars!

• And falafel. Lots of it. Yum.

Emo: A History

2006-08-03T17:06:00.000+10:00

The story of Emo is one plagued with misunderstanding and controversy. Going from a genre of Washington rock in the 1980's to a derogatory insult and infamous social class, Emo has a thick, cultured background.

The term Emo, (derived from "Emotional"), has two main meanings. The first of these is a term to describe several musical genres, varying over time. The second, and more recent, adaptation of the word represents a social class renowned for their semi-gothic persona and is ofter used as an insult.

The term, "Emo", was first used as a the term for a category of hardcore punk rock in Washington DC in the 1980's. The term "emocore" was also used to describe "emotional hardcore" music. The term is thought to have derived from the fact that many of the assiciated bands, such as Embrace, One Last Wish and Beefeater, got spontaneously emotional on stage. The original meaning of Emo, however, died out after the break up of many of the assiciated bands in the 1990's.

Through the 1990's, Emo began to represent much of the Indie music scene with bands like Sunny Day Real Estate and Texas Is The Reason, who turned the genre more melodic and less chaotic. This led to a softening of Emo into a soft-punk-rock sub genre. Slowly creeping into the mainstream, Emo had, by the end of the 1990's, left its hardcore roots behind, to take on a more "emo"tional character.

A milestone and turning point for Emo was the classification of Dashboard Confessional as Emo. Carrabba's music featured lyrics founded in deep and personal outpouring of emotion. Where ealier Emo had featured lyrics of more dark and painful direction, Carrabba's featured a greater focus on love won and lost and the inability to cope. This led to a surge of popularity of Emo throughout the teenage market, many who, experiencing love and heartbreak for the first time, related to such themes.

This led to the socially accepted Emo, the heartbroken teenager who whines about how his life sucks. The term itself has developed very negative connotations and is ofter used as an insult. This led to the fashion that these types of people favored (being a combination of super tight black pants, straight-usually black-hair covering three fifths of the face, studded belts, and other, semi-gothic items) to be branded "Emo" as well. This led to the categorisation of bands who adopted this dress code into the Emo category, irrelevent of their style of music. An example of this pop-punk band Green Day who, while viewed by many Emo, doesn't actually fall into the increasingly broad genre.

2006-07-23T19:59:00.001+10:00

Gah haven't been bothered to blog even though it's not expected for me to.
Done so much in the past 2 weeks.

Heres pretty much everything involving money:

1. Saturday; Went to Sunni's party, saw POC2 again, beat a card in Initial D
2. School; Shyt as most would expect
3. Got Tokyo Drift from Themira; Really fast, good quality, already got on iPod
4. Sandisk Cruzer 1gb usb flash; so proud =P

And while I'm at it, lyrics for Duality:

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
But it's made of all
The things I have to take
Jesus it never ends
It pushed its' way inside
If the pain goes on

I have screamed until my veins collapsed
I've waited as my times elapsed
Now all I do is live with so much fate

I've wished for this
I've bitched for that
I've left beind this little fact
You cannot kill what you did not create

I've gotta say what I've gotta say
And then I swear I'll go away
But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise

I guess I'll save the best for last
My future seems like one big past
You laughed at me 'cos you left me no choice

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
If the pain goes on
I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT!

Pull me back together
Or separate the skin from bone
Leave me all the pieces
Then you can leave me alone

Tell me the reality
Is better than the dream
But I've found out the hard way
NOTHING IS WHAT IT SEEMS!

I push my fingers into my...EYES!
It's the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
Jesus it never ends
It pushed its' way inside
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got
All I've got is insane
All I've got
All I've got is insane
All I've got
All I've got is insane
All I've gotAll I've got is insane
All I've got
All I've got is insane
All I've got
All I've got is insane

I push my fingers into my eyes
It's the only thing
That slowly stops the ache
Jesus it never ends
It pushed its' way inside
If the pain goes on
I'm not gonna make it!

All I've got
All I've got is insane
All I've got
All I've got is insane
All I've got
All I've got is insane
All I've got
All I've got is insane

2006-07-18T06:46:00.000+10:00

Random quick post... =P
Internet really laggy and screwed for the past few...weeks
So to suum everything up:
Sunni's Party = fun
Dad accidently crashes car = my fault ~~(? what a dickhead)~~
School today = Shyt
Gotta leave house in 30min for school = really shyt

2006-07-13T21:03:00.000+10:00

After much sacrifice and negotioation ~~like giving away the chance to buy a xbox360~~ I'm finally allowed to go to Sunni's party. Now all I have to do is come up with some money which my parents unthoughtfully didn't mention that tthey would not give me.

2006-07-12T11:28:00.000+10:00

Random post to keep me occupied for 30 seconds. Really quite depressing.

Listening to :: Lying From You - Linkin Park